Back at Work

This past week I went back to work.  It wasn't even actually a full week.  It was 4 days...but that was definitely long enough!  :(

While it was nice to get out of the house and see my coworkers and feel the anticipation (and STRESS) of a brand new school year, I've really been having a hard time being away from Abigail.  In the morning, I get up and get all of my things ready for work (including my breast pump), then I wake Abbie up to feed her.  After feeding her, Michael takes her to get changed while I get dressed for work.  Once I'm ready, I hold her for a few more minutes until I need to leave.  That's when my stomach starts to churn and feels like it's twisted in knots.  Goodbyes typically last several minutes.  I tell her to be a good girl while I'm away and that I'll be back soon.  Once I hand her over, I shed a few tears and get my things and start walking out the door.  Michael's so sweet and knows that I need to give her one more hug and a kiss, so he calls me back into the house to say goodbye one more time.  That's basically how every morning has been.  While I'm at work, I'm constantly thinking about her.  There have been even times when I start to feel physically ill because I miss her so much.  I have the constant feeling that a piece of me is missing.  I hear that it'll get easier....and I'm hoping so.  But for now, it just sucks being away from her.

Thankfully, though, I know that she's in very very good hands.  This past week she was either with her dad, or with her Grammy.  I can't even express how thankful I am that they text me often and even send pictures to show me that Abigail is having fun and being taken care of.  Michael even sent me a little video of her playing and smiling.  Helps to put me a little at ease because it makes me feel like she's not too far away.

As soon as I got to work on the first day, I got this texted to me. :)

After work yesterday, I found this on the counter.  :)

How sweet!  :)
...they're definitely worth everything I do and more.

It's been tough, but I know I can do this.  Also, I'm thinking that once school officially starts on Monday, the students will definitely occupy most of my attention, so hopefully my day will go by faster.  Here's to a productive new school year!